So I got my first paycheck! It’s a lot more than what I was expecting- not that I’m complaining ;) it’s just really amazing…
I used to get $161 every two weeks and in just 4 days I made well over double that amount. I feel like I can actually afford things now, you know?
Ever since they let me go at my old job back in 2012, I’ve been in a ‘depressive’ funk. Feeling like an asshole every minute, hour, day, etc. Not knowing why or how I fucked up. Constantly doubting and second-guessing myself. Hating everything I’ve ever done with my life. Feeling guilty for spending over $5 on almost anything because I had no income, no unemployment, nothing but meager savings.
Scoring an interview was typically good enough but getting the job was a literal miracle.
July was definitely a miraculous month. Apart from scoring two parts in two audioplays and going to Lebanon, I finally got a job. It’s been an exciting month. I finally feel successful. I’m happy.